Hey, guyz~!!! Sorry for not updating so long. Yeah, I FINALLY cooled down. Actually, I had been for a while, but I got too lazy and...... ahhhh.... you know.... (XP)

Anywayz, the main thing is that I'm back to my usual, hyperactive self and that's that. Nothing could get me down, though except for this F***IN' weather we've been having!!!!

I mean, come ON!!! Rain for 24/7 four days straight!!!! What's the deal?!?! I got my sneakers wet along with my socks because of the semi flood in our area! And I got completely drenched!!!! And I had an umbrella with me too!!! Why in Heavens name did I had to get soaking wet by rain when I had an UMBRELLA with me????

And dun say my umbrella got ripped or had a hole in it, 'cuz it DIDN'T!!!

Speaking of rain, like my BG? I thought maybe I should match it with the rainy weather. Plus, isn't it cute!?!?!?!?! GAARA-KUN~~~~!!!!!!! (XD) I so love Naruto~!!! One of my favorite anime!!! But I HATE the very fact that Viz had to DUB it so horribly!!!! Why can't they just leave the hell alone with it and send it to Adult Swim instead?!?!?!?! NOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~!!!!! THEY'RE KILLING NARUTO!!!!!!! IT'S AN EVIL CRIME, I TELL U!!!!! EVIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...............Ahem.  But anyways...... AREN'T THEY CUTE?!?!?!?!?! I just adore Gaara and Naruto. Especially when they're together like that. Get's me all warm inside~!!! (=^ w ^=) Though..... Naru-chan does look somewhat girly..... But he's still cute~!!! Eeeeeee~!!!! *squeals*

Hey, guess f***in' what: Found out that according to my mom, my dad won't talk to me and give me a cold shoulder cuz he's in shock. A shock. What kind of f***in' excuse is that?!?!?!?!

She even told me that such action of what I did is most certainly not tolerated in Korea. Well let me tell you something, you mother f***ers!!!!! This is AMERICA!!!!!! NOT Korea!!!!!! You immigrated from there to here so you can have a better life and you weren't happy with the way of life there.

So if that's the case, GET YOUR F***IN' KOREAN CONSERVATIVE ASS OUT FROM THAT KOREAN CONSERVATIVE ROCK AND GET A F***IN' LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I may love my foreign country and all, but enough is enough!!!

And I don't CARE if my father is shocked from my sudden O.C. (out of character) outburst cuz he should've known that even I, have my own limit!!!!! I'm not a f***in' robot, you know!!! I'm human too!!! I have feelings!!! I have emotions!!! And I'm their f***in' daughter, not a slave!!!

You don't like it? Then TOUGH!!!!!!!

I seriously HATE my f***ing life. I seriously f***in' hate it. Yesterday, I came back from grocery shopping for my mom and I was sweating and exausted from the walking plus with the weights (aka: grocery bags). So naturally I would be anxious to get home, so I pressed the apartment door bell a bit slight tad longer, thus the longer the ringing. Then out of the blue my f***in' asshole of a father screamed at me to "shut up" at the speaker.

Needless to say, I was pissed beyond words. He could've at LEAST told to me stop the ringing or a polite "quiet". But nooo, he just HAD to say "shut up". Screaming too, none-the-less.

So when I got to my apartment floor and into the room, I told him what right did he have to tell me to "shut up" ever so rudely over a small thing? Why is it that he tells strangers, friends, etc to be quiet politely and ME, his own daughter to "shut up"? Then he just suddenly got up from the chair, threw the grocery bags right at me (there was milk in there too, it exploded on me....) and slapped me right across my face.

Then he screamed at me (I really had the urge to tell him to "say it, don't spray it!") to get out of the house and I did just that. I didn't come back for more than 3 hours and I didn't plan to come back anytime soon until my mom came running after me. She told me that she's on no one's side and she thinks that I should apologize and what I did was wrong.

I was seeing RED!!!!!! I explained to her that perhaps what I did was wrong, I mean to talk back to your own parents, but why is it that she see's no wrong from my dad and ONLY me????!!!! Is she saying that it's okay for your own parents telling you to shut up for no apparent reason and then call you a "bitch"??? I think NOT!!!!! I mean, I got feelings too, not only just them. I was just as equally as hurt, or even more than my father!

What have I done so horrible to call me a "bitch" and to "shut up" and "get the hell out the house"? I'm a good student, I never got in trouble, I never bugged my folks or anybody for that matter on what I want, I never bothered to try and tell them to give me some respect as well (cuz most likely I'll get slapped and beaten), and THIS is what I get!!!!

And guess what! This is SUCH a killer: She said that my father didn't say "shut up" to me but to the DOOR BELL!!! A door bell!!! What kind of a f***in' lame excuse is THAT?!?!?!?!?! Does a door bell have EARS??? Does the person who pressed the door bell KNOW that???? OF COURSE NOT!!!!!!

But anyways, I said I won't say that I'm sorry unless I actually mean it and not until they give some RESPECT as well!!!! My law: If one wants respect, then EARN it!!!! It's not just something so simple that you can give it away!!!

In all my life, never have I in my 17 years, going on 18, did I ever gained my respect from my parents, never let me express my feelings freely in fear of them or what I thought personally. I even got beaten up from my parents when I was in 2nd grade when a teacher called my parents for no reason! Almost everybody knew she was a racist against Asians.

And guess what my mother told me: "You don't need respect". What the f*** does that f***in' suppose to mean??!?!?!?!?!?!?! And so my dad avoids me and I avoid him. But I felt REALLY uncomfortable with the atmosphere so I came up to him and I said I was sorry TWICE and I would never talk back to him again (although slightly grudgingly...) and he just BRUSHED me off!!!!!!!

What crawled up in his f***in' ass and DIED?!?!?!?!?!?! I hate my dad, I hate my mom, I hate my life!!!!!!!!!! I just wanna DIE right here and NOW!!!!!!! What have I f***in' do to you, God???? What have I done to you that's so bad enough to send to my personal Hell on Earth?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! TELL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just feel like commiting suicide right now!!!!! I always thought about doing it since 2st grade and I still do once in a while. But I'm not a f***in' coward. I'll live on. I'll live and ENDURE my pain!!!!!!! And I've got too much to accomplish to die!!!  ........That, and I'm afraid to go to Hell....... Commiting suicide is a horrible sin in my religion........

Gaaahh~~~ I hate it when my background image doesn't work..... Thanks Anthony. I owe ya.

Yup. This yet another "Inu Yasha" pix of Sesshomaru & Inuyasha. I can't help it! Thery're soooo cute~!!! (=^w^=) And I always wanted to see them together not trying to strangle each other's throat for a change!!!!

This one's not as great as the previous one ( Why didn't it show?!!! (¤Ð___¤Ð)) but still pretty darn cute!

But errrr.... is it just me or does Inuyasha here look a tiny bit..... alright, fine, EXTREMELY cute and adorable for his own good and girlyish....? Fluffy (aka: Sesshomaru XD) too but not as much as Inu-chan.... Then again Fluffy always DID look girly in his own manly way (XD). Oh well. Cute's cute, right??? Right.

Naruto: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~~!!!!

Yohu: ........Why are u still laughing at me??? Do you wanna die?!!!

Naruto: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~~~!!!

Yohu: *brings out....the Great Mallet of DOOOOOM!!!!* (sounds of lighting)

Naruto: AHAHA---- *shuts up*

Wow........ I mean...... WOW!!!! (o____O) I never thought I'd see the day when Sesshomaru & Inuyasha would be in the same picture not trying to kill each other for a change!!! They look rather...... peaceful..... (O___O) A scary thought but pretty sweet at the same time.

My cousin sent me this pix and I must say I was VERY impressed with it. Being a total art fanatic that I am, I couldn't refuse it. At first, I was afraid she'd send me another typical "you-know-what" (For those who knows me personally, you know what I'm talking about.....If not, then where on Heavens name have you been???).

The pix I posted up as background is the one she sent me. Thank goodness it's not "you-know-what" this time.....is it??????? (O____o) It had better NOT!!!! I swear, she's getting me paranoid!!!!!! (> O <)

Naruto: Aren't you always???

Yohu: SHUTUP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Naruto: *snickers*

Yohu: Oh NO!!!! Don't you DARE laugh at me!!!!!!!

Nauto: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~~!!!!!

Yohu: ......................